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Painful #2
4:12pm Here I am again. Work completed since this time yesterday = exactly, er, seven minutes? I slept from 11pm to 1pm, and not too sure what I’ve done - well from 2-4, it’s browsing lots of internet, rationalizing: “I can’t start quite yet, I just need to take a little break, I just want a little entertainment, take a break, I’m not happy enough to start yet..” but we’re going to go back to logging, RIGHT NOW.
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Painful
Alright. It’s one twenty three on Monday, and because I’ve been at this computer lab for 60 hours now (NOT kidding) and STILL haven’t finished the Introduction and Methods that I was supposed to hand in 37 hours ago (YES, I REALLY don’t know what I did with my time since then) I’m going to keep a log. Of everything I do, in ten-minute intervals, until I’m done. Which will probably be another twelve hours from now, because I still have so much work to do. I’m going to need to drink more coffee to stay awake, but for right now, I really just need to focus on my to-do list, and to keep going.
1:30 - started this list.
1:40 - added in one quote from my old thesis, kept reading. there is something about framing the debate with lesbians.
1:50 - stopped to regroup. and then wasted 5 minutes. restert. okay. i’m going to get stuck if i keep shifting gears. i should at least OUTLINE R___, and then switch to the L ones. and look. we’ll do the secret to fmh later. you are growing in that sphere, just keep doing it. it’s out there, and right now isnt the time to worry about it.
2:00 - UGH, just wasting time thinking about things. alright. i am going to outline r___ for the next 20 minutes.
2:10 - daydreamed, checked my iq, and finally opened the r____ document.
2:20 - 5 mins bathroom. when this is done, im going to call adhd doctors. fcuk me.
2:30 - pasted in the info and googled adhd again. shite. ok, back to work.
2:40 - ARGH. Facebook!
2:50 - nothing. printed out list of docs, read from my google reader. i’m getting discouraged, plus i have a shitload more work to do. ok. should i call those doctors? my conscience is telling me to instead work on the Spanish for an hour, i have to take a break at 4 anyway.
3:00 - yes i just wasted 20 minutes googling something home organization im not quite sure how i got there.
3:10 - yes i just wasted 20 minutes googling something home organization im not quite sure how i got there. - because is tarted googling ikea desks at 2;52, and then that led to googling under window shelving, and it all started because i looked out the windown and realized how helpful it is to work when you can see the sunshine outside and i wanted to do that at whome.
3:20 - wrote two sentences of the spanish section; looked up machismo and marianismo googled phone number, club in ddr.
3:30 - looked at some articles, then my phone rang, checked my email, looked at o’s photos, googled club t ne, other listings, looked at ddr on google maps, where i used to live tc.
3:40 - looked at AddC/IddF web site, thought about what to write to oddu, how i should talk about my time working at addc, peoples posts about t_dd
3:50 - looked at my email and MSF documentary preview.
4:00 - TAKE A BREAK FOR FOOD AND COFFEE. A BIG FRENCH VANILLA JUST DRINK THE WHOLE DAMN THING.
4:10 - DITTO
4:20 - DITTO
4:30 - DITTO
4:40 - GET BACK TO WORK RIGHT NOW.
4:50 - vdda lddt, jdda bddn, books on amazon
5:00 - glddr magazine wddg stories
5:10 - gldur magazine dddg stories
5:20 - ditto, plus some ny times about obamas aunt or something
5:30 - gawker, nyt real estate, facebook, glamour
5:40 - mtm, jalli, dorble, AT
5:50 - apparently napping
6:00 - working with I
6:10 - google reader, fbk, stalking kg
6:20 - google reader, fbk, updating this. on another note, recording all this makes me feel a bit less tired. and more motivated to work, since i clearly got nothing done. So I’m going to. I think that this is really what I need to do, every day for a month. And add up the totals…
6:30 talked to dr sddm
6:40 looked up c insurance googled my pdddt
6:50 ditto, i’m not sure
7:00 more fddk. okay, is it time to get working yet?
7:10 browsed jd
7:20 ditto
7:30 oh god, you know seriously, i stayed here until 9:30 and i dont even know what i did except that it wasnt work. watched tv, rationalizing that i needed to take a break, looked at apartments, blah de blah
7:40 oh god, you know seriously, i stayed here until 9:30 and i dont even know what i did except that it wasnt work. watched tv, rationalizing that i needed to take a break, looked at apartments, blah de blah
7:50 oh god, you know seriously, i stayed here until 9:30 and i dont even know what i did except that it wasnt work. watched tv, rationalizing that i needed to take a break, looked at apartments, blah de blah
8:00 oh god, you know seriously, i stayed here until 9:30 and i dont even know what i did except that it wasnt work. watched tv, rationalizing that i needed to take a break, looked at apartments, blah de blah
8:10 oh god, you know seriously, i stayed here until 9:30 and i dont even know what i did except that it wasnt work. watched tv, rationalizing that i needed to take a break, looked at apartments, blah de blah
8:20 oh god, you know seriously, i stayed here until 9:30 and i dont even know what i did except that it wasnt work. watched tv, rationalizing that i needed to take a break, looked at apartments, blah de blah
8:30 oh god, you know seriously, i stayed here until 9:30 and i dont even know what i did except that it wasnt work. watched tv, rationalizing that i needed to take a break, looked at apartments, blah de blah oh god, you know seriously, i stayed here until 9:30 and i dont even know what i did except that it wasnt work. watched tv, rationalizing that i needed to take a break, looked at apartments, blah de blah
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I AM GOING TO KILL THIS. I AM GOING TO DOMINATE IT. THE ONLY THING THAT STANDS BETWEEN YOU AND FINISHING THIS DAMN PAPER IS YOUR BELIEFS ABOUT YOUR ABILITY TO DO IT. REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY SERIOUSLY. What if she had been there? Well she’s a perfectionist anyway. STOP BEING SUCH A PERFECTIONIST AND FUCKING GET IT DONE. And quickly. Force yourself to become good at the thing you are most hopeless at.
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My Quiz Results
Usually a Procrastinator
You rank in the top 10% in terms of procrastination. That is, when it comes to putting things off, you often do so even though you know you shouldn’t. Likely, you are much more free-spirited, adventurous, and spontaneous than most. Probably, your work doesn’t engage you as much as you would like or perhaps you are surrounded by many easily available and much more pleasant temptations. These temptations may initially seem rewarding, but in the longer-term, you see many of them as time-wasters. Though you are likely incredibly productive just before a deadline, you might not get all your work done and there is a lot of unwanted stress. You may want to reduce what procrastination you do commit. If so, here are three tips that have been shown to work:
Goal Setting
This is one of the most established ways of moving forward on your plans. Take any project you are presently procrastinating and break it down into individual steps. Each of these steps should have the following three aspects. First, they should be somewhat challenging though achievable for you. It is more satisfying to accomplish a challenge. Second, they should be proximal, that is you can achieve them fairly soon, preferable today or over the next few days. Third, they should be specific, that is you know exactly when you have accomplished them. If you can visualize in your mind what you should do, even better.
Stimulus Control
This method has also been well tested and is very successful. What you need is a single place that you do your work and nothing else. Essentially, you need an office, though many students have a favorite desk at a library. For stimulus control to work best, the office or desk should be free of any signs of temptation or easily available distractions that might pull you away (e.g., no games, no chit-chat, no web-surfing). If you need a break, that is fine, but make sure you have it someplace at least a few minutes distant, preferably outside of the building itself. If you are unwilling to take the time to get there, acknowledge that you likely don’t need the break.
Routines
Routines are difficult to get into but in the end, this is often our aim. Things are much easier to do when we get into a habit of them, whether it is work, exercise, or errands. If you schedule some of those tasks you are presently procrastinating upon so that they occur on a regular schedule, they become easier. Start your routine slowly, something to which you can easily commit. Eventually, like brushing your teeth, it will likely become something you just do, not taking much effort at all. At this point, you might add to your routine, again always keeping your overall level of effort at a moderate to low level. Importantly, when you fall off your routine, inevitable with sickness or the unexpected, get back on it as soon as possible. Your routine gets stronger every time your follow it. It also gets weaker every time you don’t.
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FOCUS ON THE TASK AT HAND. YOU NEED TO BE ABLE TO WORK ON A PREDICTABLE SCHEDULE. THIS IS LIKE A FOOD PLAN – YOU HAVE TO JUST STICK TO WHATEVER YOU HAVE SET YOURSELF THAT YOU WILL DO IN A PARTICULAR MOMENT. AND WORK ON IT.
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Things to do every day
visualize yourself pushing through that tough stomach feeling
read ten minutes of the proc book
when you are AWARE that you are procrastinating, think of something easy that you could start doing.
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(PUSHING THROUGH THE RESISTANCE TO STARTING A TASK RIGHT AWAY ENERGIZES ME AND GIVES ME A FEELING OF ACCOMPLISHMENT).
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I convince myself that I’m ‘just going to [check web site, reader, etc] for (five, or ten, or until the next nth of the hour).’ But it’s like ‘just one bite’ – it’s almost NEVER true.
